Missed Goals & A New Year

Well I missed my goal for being in the 180s for my 35th b-day and the cruise I am about to go on. Looking back I don't really know why. I had plenty of time to turn things around several times and make things happen. I am sitting here today right at 201 pounds feeling like I settled but knowing I still want to realize my goals one day and get into the 180s or lower. For me it is mostly to see my bodies potential or to maintain a healthy lifestyle that promotes a usable physic and long life. Some where around the house hunting and moving I lost some focus. It was not like I totally lost sight of my goals as I was still working out pretty regularly. Just not as much nor was the diet as tight as I would have liked it to be. Like I have always said I am not going to try to live in or examine the past because its all about today or the future in my book. I am going to enjoy my cruise but try to watch my portions and get in a few workouts while still trying to get some R&R from every day life. My goal is to come back refreshed with a new plan that puts more structure back into my workouts and eating. Last year wasn't a loosing season for me I made big changes for the positive. This year, my 35th year, I want to go all the way. I want to get to where I have always wanted to go and see what it will bring me. This is going to be the year of Ripx.... Be looking for a more outlined approach of what I am going to be doing in early October. I will leave you with a picture of a still goofy, trying to stay young, 35 year old man (at dinner for my b-day at the local fish house). For those of you still reading take care and keep blogging. Its your entries that help keep me going day to day in my weight loss quest.

Never Ending Battle

WI: 201

The weight is coming down slowly but I am still pretty sad to see that stupid 2 in front of it. So far this week I have been hitting all my workouts and diet has been descent (not 100% but better). I need to dig deep and find the weekend warrior of fitness. This weekend has no agenda and we are scheduled to be at home so I need to take the next 3-4 days and make them healthy. I need to watch my weight continue to go down on a weekend, which hasn't happened in a long time. The inlaws are due to arrive on Monday and I should be down about 25-30 lbs since last time I saw them. Our cruise is in 22 days so I have plenty of things to focus on. Hopefully I can report a weight with a 1 in front of it before end of day Monday. Hope everyone else is doing well, its been awfully quite in the blog-sphere the last few months (less a few of the troopers).

Trying!!!!

WI: 203 uhhhhhhhh

Free Pizza today and passing it up. 4 mile run on tap for this evening and solid food choices coming up. I will leave it at that...

Just a Quick Blurp

WI: 199.8

Well last week was both good and bad. I had some good eating decisions and some bad ones. Only hit 3 workouts and am hoping to make this week much better. We went camping again last weekend and I did have some alcohol and bad eats. I did make a few good decisions along the way also though. This week I am aiming for a full 6 workouts and allot of clean eating. So far so good. Hope everyone else is doing well also.

Dissapointed & Depressed

Well I don't have much to say good so I will keep this short...

wi: 202

I spent a good weekend camping with just me and my older son Ryan with some friends from Seattle. It was our first father son camping trip and it was great (lots of good memories). The bad is it included allot of bad food and drink. Even though I think the 202 number is inflated by sodium and bad choices I was sad/glad to see it. I needed a slap in the face and I am hoping this will be the needed wake up call that I so badly want. I cant say I have been really 100% bad. I am still working out probably 4 days a week. The part that is dragging me down in my diet. Its pretty much been trashed since Vegas and has never fully recovered. I have gotten used to eating junk again and now I have to retrain my brain to eat healthy and be ok with feeling hungry again. Every time I get close to my goal of the 180s I go and sabotage myself. Now I am up 5-6 pounds and I need to turn things around before it turns into 20-30 lbs.

Anyway enough said its time to do something.

Reflection

As I reflect upon the last month and a half or so I have come to realize that there have been glimpses of normalcy or small indications of getting back on track. Then I throw another 4 or 5 days of bad eating and less exercise into the mix and screw things up. This last weekend we had our annual friends and family camp out. The entire weekend went by without a "Hey man you look like you lost some weight". Some of these people are people I see once a year or maybe twice at most. This got me thinking and I looked back into my blog and realized I have only lost about 15 pounds from this time last year. For a year that I really feel like I busted my ass 15 pounds really isn't much. Granted in typical Ripx fashion I gained some back and had to re loose it. During the last year I have done a full round of P90 and almost 3 rounds of P90x. In the workout world I would consider P90x as no joke. This means I need to continue to analyze my food intake and continue to tweak my workout regiment. It also made me realize that I have not accomplished near as much as I had fooled myself into thinking I had. I can really see a trend in my blogging years. If trends hold true I am due to gain a bunch of weight back. The last month and a half I have really been doing a good job of attempting to do just that. The one thing that is blaring in my head right now is its time to break the cycle. Its time for me to stop being fat Ripx and fully transform over to the Ripx I am today or the lighter leaner Ripx of the future. I have no business going back into 200 territory. My body was not functioning correctly at 240+. I feel pretty good in the 190s so how much better would I feel in the 180s or 170s for that matter? Matter of fact its possible that I crossed into 200 territory over the weekend. Moment of truth on the scale happens tomorrow morning. Do yourself a favor and look at what your blog had to say a year ago, it really helped me put things in perspective.

Today I still have my goal of wanting to be 180s something by my 35th b-day. Its been on the radar for a long time and I have pretty much wasted the last two months f-ing around. I am sure I am looking at loosing 10-12 pounds in about 60 days. That's allot of pounds in my world... But I am still dedicated to making it happen.

Insanity, the workout series showed up on my front doorstep yesterday when I got home from the long weekend. It was almost like a challenge or a wake up call saying "I am a 60 day workout series and you have 60 days to hit your b-day goal". So guess what today is? Today is day 1 of 60 with Shawn T and his Insanity series. Am I scared? yeah a little but not scared enough to back down. I am sure I will be rambling on my blog about this in days to come. I am doing measurements and pictures tonight to document what it can do for a average Joe like me.

Well this has turned out to be a long winded blog post. As always thanks to those of you who read and spur me on from time to time. Expect more frequent updates and posts from me in the next few months.

As Scheduled

WI: 196

Yesterday went pretty much as I planned. Descent food and a good round of exercise leads to dropping the quick gained BS lbs. Today, more of the same. Lunch is packed and a workout is scheduled. Maybe I will see a 195 tomorrow, that would be nice. I am trying to really focus in on my mid September goal. I hope I am not too late and realistically I don't think I am.