Screwed

Well the last week and a half or so we have had a nasty cold going though the house.  Guess who caught it? yes, me....  Its cost me several workouts and a 1.5 days off work.  Its amazing how the kids go back to school then the colds and flus start.  Luckily I got my yearly flu shot already (however sometimes I wonder if that's what makes me sick).  So I didn't weigh myself today as I know it wouldn't be a good thing.  Going to try and get in a stationary bike ride tonight just to keep stuff moving.  Time to buck back up and get after it.

Small Victories

WI: 238.4

Well I worked pretty hard the majority of this week to get that number up top.  My weekend wasn't great diet wise due to being out camping and meal sharing some.  During the week though my diet has been very good and I have been hitting my workouts like clockwork.  I was a little nervous about my number before stepping on the scale this morning, wondering if I had done enough.  Needless to say I was pretty happy with what I saw.  Its nothing crazy but I get to mark that little goal off my list which feels pretty darn good (even though it was late) its the small victories that keep me going and motivated.  I can tell my body is still in the early stages of workout fatigue.  I am pretty much sore all the time and I have had many moments where I was close to puking after pushing it to hard.  I have this memory of being able to go balls to the walls but in my current condition my body says are you freaking crazy.  I keep telling myself it will get easier as it always does and I will be less sore.

I cant believe next week I turn 38.  Time flies really fast as does ones youth, so if your reading this and your young enjoy it and use it to your best potential.  Don't squander it being overweight and unhealthy cause it just gets harder.  I know I am not a crypt keeper but I am super thankful that I am still able bodied and willing to exercise and be physical.  My wife is getting me a set of golf clubs for my bday.  I have always wanted to golf (tried a few times) and was horrible at it.  Luckily my brother in law is a golf pro and said he would give me lessons and build me some custom clubs.  So hopefully with his professional help and practice I will be able to hit that stupid little white ball.  Too many years of softball has made my swing (slice) horrible.  

Life is good, seize the day!

Pissed Off at Myself

WI: 240.5

Well the number pretty much speaks for itself and shows the effort I put in this last week.  I am feeling a little like the cat on the right in the pic.  I missed my first short term goal which should have been my easiest.  I thought about re-assigning dates to my goals but at this point what good does that do? I will mark that bitch off by next Wednesday come hell or high water.  Late is better than just saying F it.  I know for me to start the wheels rolling its all coming down to getting my diet on track.  Its definitely been better at times but I am still letting to much crap sneak in.  I am moving in the right direction but not fast enough in my opinion, so time to kick it up a notch.  We did have a really great long weekend up north in Seattle with some good friends.  However with that comes social drinking and eating which has always been my achilles heel.  So too much garbage food and not enough moving caused this weeks missed goal.  This coming weekend we are going to go camping with my parents.  We have already meal planned and the food we are having is pretty solid.  If I can get some good hikes in etc I should be doing pretty good.  I did however get in my 4 workouts last week... but as we all know you cant out train a bad diet.

Another thing that has been in the for front of my mind is pictures...  The main bad point is I don't want to be in them.  Yet I love pictures, looking at them, and taking them.  They are so powerful in remembering wonderful times in your life.  The last time I struggled to get below 200 I actually didn't mind seeing pictures of myself.  Recently a few pics of me have popped up and I hardly recognized myself and I am really ashamed at what I see.  I look very unhealthy, un-kept, and bloated (not the first impression I want to give).  Truthfully when I look in the mirror I don't see that person, yes I still see a fat guy but not that big of a guy.  I am starting to keep a file with these types of pictures to help remind myself what I truly look like.  It will be nice to be ok with being in pictures again.

This week is going to be a good one!