Humm

Not a whole lot to report on today. We went to a friends house to watch Monday night football. I kept my diet really good and skipped the beer etc.

7am - Cliff Builder Bar, coffee, and a V8

10am - beef jerky

11:45 - Chicken Breast, 1 pineapple ring, slice of cheese, half whole wheat pita, Laughing Cow cheese triangle, 1 cup of cottage cheese.

2:00 - Raw veggies (green beans, cherry tomatoes, broccoli, carrots)

7:30 - 6oz of Flank Steak, a little czar salad, steamed broccoli and cauliflower.

misc - 120 oz of water through out the day, 4 fish oil caps, daily multi vitamin.

My weight was up a little this morning. I kind of think it was because of the late dinner time. We usually eat between 5:30 and 6:00. No exercise last night. Tonight I plan on doing some 210s etc while watching BL.

One nice thing did happen to me this weekend. I hadn't seen my older sister in a while and she said "G, your looking good how much weight have you lost?". So some people are finally starting to notice which feels good.

Slightly Miffed

So I had a pretty good weekend this last weekend. I may have been over my calories one day but they were not terrible foods. I had a great workout last night and wake up to see 224. Not a good way to start the week knowing you have to drop the same stupid pounds you have already lost a thousand times (I know thats my fault). I just hopped after a descent weekend I would see some progress. As always I am going to keep on keeping on. Plus the stinking Seahawks got owned by Pitt which pretty much ruined Sunday. Then the Packers drop their game against the stinking Bears. It was a bad football day at our house.

Sundays Food
9am - bowl of autumn harvest multi grain shredded wheat mixed with grape nuts (little honey over top)
noon - deli ham and light cheese sandwich with tomato soup (ww bread, and low sodium healthy soup)
6pm - garden salad, chicken breast, pineapple ring, slice of cheese in a whole wheat pita pocket. 3/4 Seltzer water with 1/4 100% juice.

80 oz of water.

analysis of my own diet says too many carbs yesterday after reading what I ate.

Workout
ran for 40 min, 3.41 miles, 630 cals

My run last night was the furthest constant run I have done since starting this journey. I actually felt really good and didn't even start to think about being tired until the 30th min or so. I kept pushing cause 40 mins was my goal. So it was a mini victory for me even though my weight didn't do what I wanted it to. Sounds like a few people got kicked in the a$$ by the weight gods the last few days.

Keep It Rollin

Todays Weigh In (223.5)

I think I did well at the Parents house for dinner tonight. I practiced portion control, skipped the beer and stuck with water, green tea, and milk. Had a nice night over there and walked away feeling good about my eating and health goals.

Thursdays menu looked something like this

7am - Cliff Builder Bar, coffee

10am - plum

11:45 - spinach salad with cherry tomatoes, left over Shepard's pie, and a diet dew.

2:00 - almonds (little pack you get at the convenience store 260 cal)

5:30 - Beef stew over pasta (no potatoes in the beef stew just other veggies and I took a small protion of pasta). The other 2/3 of my portions were green beans and cottage cheese with some pinapple. Drank 12 0z of 1% milk.

8:00 - small handfull of popcorn while watching survivor and a green tea lipton zero cal.

misc - 130 oz of water through out the day, 4 fish oil caps, daily multi vitamin.

so all in all I feel like I did pretty good diet wise given the situation.

exercise - thats why I am up so late. I told FAT I was gonna run when I got home so that's what I did. Got on the treadmill about 11:20pm ran for 30min strait, 2.6 miles, 470cal, and my heart rate bounced between 156 and 162 the whole time. I feel pretty dam good. Anyway I need to hit the shower and would like to be in bed by 1am. Tomorrow is like all fridays (Daddy Day) with my son so I gotta be well rested. Keep Rocking the Casbah FAT

Scary FAT

Todays Weigh In: 224 (coming back down)

I will start this blog with some very spooky pictures of me from last Halloween. Not only was I cast in a fellow workers zombie film but I won the office's best costume. You will notice if you look closely my PVC skewer goes in the back and out the front. Amazing things can be done with a coat hanger, duck tape, and some plumbing supplies from your last bathroom remodel. Rumor has it I was driving to work and rammed into the back of a plumbber truck... Yes I know I am a geek or a goober. I don't usually dress up but being in a local Indy film sounded like fun and out of the normal ripx realm of things to do. I have yet to see it, I am sure it was really scary. Gotta love the look on my sons face.... sure he was thinking "what in the heck is that?, I hope daddies ok."

7am - Cliff Builder Bar, coffee

9am - veggies celery, broccoli, carrots (raw)

11:45 - spinach salad with cherry tomatoes, can of tuna mixed with some humus, 1 cup cottage cheese.

2:00 - more veggies like 10am and some beef jerky

5:30 - Sheppards pie (made with sweet potatoes instead of normal potatoes, ground turkey, green beans, zuccini, onions, garlic, salt and pepper, healthy can of cream of mushroom.). Seltzer water with 1/4 100% juice.

8:00 - pickle spear, small peice of beef jerky (proably a little too much salt).

misc - 100 oz of water through out the day, 2 fish oil caps, daily multi vitamin.

Exercise

Nothing.... Man I am really sore from tuesdays workout (even worse today). I cant really straighten my arms all the way, those curls killed me.

Tonight we are going to my parents for dinner (not sure whats on the menu). So I may have to practice very tight portion control. Just got to be smart and thoughtful and things will be good. I am feeling really good so I dont want to screw anything up. Plus I want to hit some good numbers this month and here on out. Its my Friday also so I should be able to get in a run or something when I get home.

Stick and Move

Todays Weigh In: 226 (what the F?)

I have been really good the last few days and what does my body do? It gains a bunch of weight. I hope its just holding onto water or something lame like that. I did a 5k on Monday and weights last night and this is what I get for it, freaking frustrating. So part of my plan on getting back on track is listing what I ate like many of you do. So here it goes

7am - Cliff Builder Bar, cheese stick, and black coffee

10am - veggies celery, broccoli, carrots, cherry tomatoes

11:45 - Asian Spare Ribs (boneless, probably not the leanest cut of meat but we dont eat it very often), sautéed zucchini, broccoli, and onions in a little evoo, mixed in with a little brown rice.

2:30 - more veggies like 10am and a banana

5:30 - scramble eggs (2.5 eggs) with deli lunch meat (turkey), spinach, little lite cheese, and small amount of ketchup. I also had a diet pepsi, a hand full of whole wheat wheat thins and hummus.

8:00 - 1 scoop of designer whey protein, non fat milk, handful of frozen berries (blueberries, raspberries, and strawberries mix) - pre post workout drink.

misc - 128 oz of water through out the day, 4 fish oil caps, daily multi vitamin.

My workout consisted of the 210 workouts.

210 pushups and 210 prisoner squats alternating (with body weight, very short breaks in between sets)

6 sets of arm curls with 24lbs dumbbell (reps 15, 14, 13, 12, 11, 10). I only made it to about 5 or 6 on the last set of 10 and my arms are killing me today.

Thanks for the comments again yesterday. I just dont want anyone in the coalition to fill like they are wasting time on me. I give you my word that I am trying and putting allot of effort into this. Even though I have not been dropping weight very fast my body is in a much better place then where it was when I started this. I hope my 20lbs loss mark and pictures will show that (only 3 lbs to go from my lowest). Hopefully changing it up and owning my weekends will help me loose weight a little faster. I am just not happy with 2-3 pounds a month. I am really hoping to bring in 2008 around 200. Its gonna be a really tuff goal but I am gonna try really hard.

Catalyst for Positive Change

I have decided to change my goal dates a little so they are obtainable. They are still aggressive, probably more so then my original ones. I have also added a few new ones. I appreciated all the comments yesterday even though a few of them hurt. They were all on the money, what I needed to hear/read, and have provided me with some new things to try. I know where my weaknesses lie and I need to change them. Even my wife came down on me today somewhat (snippet below).

"Anyways....sorry I brain dumped on you. Just see a lot of people making good points on your blog (swanky went OFF on your A!). They have been successful, and you can too! Sorry if I say things in the next weeks that piss you off....please know that I'm doing it because I care and want you to be supportive. I'm definitely not intending to piss you off (try to say things as tactfully as I can), just trying to help be a catalyst for positive change."

So I guess the message of this blog is to say I'm sorry. I obliously have been half assing it, not earning it, and applying less than 100%. Many of you have all been experiecing weight loss week in and week out even with some slip ups. I think I have obviously tricked myself into thinking I was doing better than I am. I feel like I put allot of effort into this but its obviously not enough. I guess my 80% dedication is just not enough to get it done. Two months in a row of 2-3 lbs weight loss is just unacceptable in my eyes. So I need to open my eyes, refocus, reassess, and retake ground lost. I am working on a change/plan of attack for my blog and weight loss so stay tuned. I hope as my wife stated that this will be a catalyst for positive change. As always thanks for sticking by me and for all your support even though my road has been rockier than most.

No More Winging It.

Disclaimer this is not a pity post so don't give me any. Just a fat guys thoughts and rambling....

To wing or not to wing.... I am choosing not to wing it anymore. I posted this on Robs blog on Friday morning "I am going to make a plan for the weekend. Whats yours? what are you eating, when are you working out?". I got as far as making a plan for Friday did I consider the next two days in the weekend? Or did I wing it? I winged it and you know what that means. I didn't do horribly but I could have done soooo much better. I had a few drinks while watching the Seahawks destroy the 49ers. Well truthfully I think the 49ers destroyed themselves, they played horrible. I actually felt bad for them even though it was a W for the hawks. There was also snacks that I took part in. It was at our house so the snacks were healthier than most football parties. We had baked chicken wings, hummus, veggies and whole wheat wheat thins. A black bean with cheese and salsa dip etc. I digress.....back to the main meaning of the post. I need to make sure I have a plan and I also need to make sure I execute those plans. That's the main issues with my weekends, I have no plan. I don't eat for too long then I get really hungry and make really bad decisions. I don't know if I don't want this bad enough or what. I can give great advice and cheer you all on but when it comes down to me following my own advice I feel like I am failing miserably. I feel like the fat personal trainer who can talk the talk but not walk the walk. Or the fat doctor that says you need to loose some weight. I want to be the guy that people listen to because I have done it (like most of you). Not the guy that people say in the back of their heads "Dude, follow your own advice you fat a$$". I am so living proof that following a diet and exercise plan 85% of the time doesn't work very well. Last week I felt so strong and motivated and I f'd it all up in a weekend. I don't know what I need maybe some tuff luv. Finally yes I know, step up or shut up right? Being fat is the one thing in my life that sucks and I am having a hard time making it right.