Pissed Off at Myself

WI: 240.5

Well the number pretty much speaks for itself and shows the effort I put in this last week.  I am feeling a little like the cat on the right in the pic.  I missed my first short term goal which should have been my easiest.  I thought about re-assigning dates to my goals but at this point what good does that do? I will mark that bitch off by next Wednesday come hell or high water.  Late is better than just saying F it.  I know for me to start the wheels rolling its all coming down to getting my diet on track.  Its definitely been better at times but I am still letting to much crap sneak in.  I am moving in the right direction but not fast enough in my opinion, so time to kick it up a notch.  We did have a really great long weekend up north in Seattle with some good friends.  However with that comes social drinking and eating which has always been my achilles heel.  So too much garbage food and not enough moving caused this weeks missed goal.  This coming weekend we are going to go camping with my parents.  We have already meal planned and the food we are having is pretty solid.  If I can get some good hikes in etc I should be doing pretty good.  I did however get in my 4 workouts last week... but as we all know you cant out train a bad diet.

Another thing that has been in the for front of my mind is pictures...  The main bad point is I don't want to be in them.  Yet I love pictures, looking at them, and taking them.  They are so powerful in remembering wonderful times in your life.  The last time I struggled to get below 200 I actually didn't mind seeing pictures of myself.  Recently a few pics of me have popped up and I hardly recognized myself and I am really ashamed at what I see.  I look very unhealthy, un-kept, and bloated (not the first impression I want to give).  Truthfully when I look in the mirror I don't see that person, yes I still see a fat guy but not that big of a guy.  I am starting to keep a file with these types of pictures to help remind myself what I truly look like.  It will be nice to be ok with being in pictures again.

This week is going to be a good one!

Weeks Fly By

WI: 240.5

The weight is going in the right direction but thus far I know I have allot more I can commit to this journey.  I only hit 3 out of the 4 workouts last week that I wanted to.  My eating has definitely been better and more mindful but still lots of room to improve there too.   Celebrated a wonderful 13 years being married to my wife this last weekend.  Cant believe how fast it has gone by.

This week my dad, one of the best men I know finally gets to retire ( at 65yo ).  They are having a big retirement party for him tomorrow and I am smoking/BBQ'n about 30 pounds of pulled pork.  I am super happy for my dad as he deserves it so very much.  Then on Friday we are traveling up to Seattle to see some friends for the long holiday weekend.

The plan for the week is 4 workouts and I need to hit my first mini weight loss goal of sub 240 in the next 3 days.  At only a half a pound I think its doable.  Will be nice to get that first goal crossed off.  I know food is going to be kind of tuff this coming weekend. So the goal there is to minimize bad choices as much as possible and use portion control to keep bad as small as possible.

My wife and her friend have committed to each other to train for a 5k.  They are starting a couch to 5k program this coming month in early September.  Of course I told them I am in for husband support and that I will do the 5k with them, her friends husband also said he would do it too.  So looks like I am going to be strapping back on the running shoes and pounding the pavement.  Nothing like running to spur some weight loss.

Until next time....  

Slow Go

WI: 242

Well I didn't get any ground breaking weight loss done this last week.  I did get 3 workouts in and several days of good eating done.

Couple Friends doing back flips

Last weekend I had a father son camp trip with my oldest son down at Lake Billy Chinnook.  We had a really nice time and spent a ton of time on the water.  As always this time reminded me why I want to be in better shape because I was by far the fattest dad there out of 5 families.  This always makes me reflect on my ultimate goal of being able to take my shirt off in public and feel alright about it.

This coming weekend we are celebrating my wife and I's 13 year marriage anniversary.  My folks are taking the boys for the night and we are going to stay the evening over in Portland.  I am sure there will be a drink or two and some yummy food but I am going to try to minimalize the damage.

I updated my goals on the right side bar.  It is somewhat aggressive at 1.5 lbs a week but I believe doable.  My short term goal of sub 240 is starting to loom so I need to have a good last couple weeks of August.  This week ( wed to wed ) I am going to hit 4 workouts at least and 6 good days of eating.    

Another Year Down - Jumping Back In.

Its hard to even know where to start in terms of blogging again.  I guess I should start with coming clean about where I am fitness wise as that is what this blog has always been about.  I am sitting here typing at 243 which is right at my heaviest.  This seems to be where my body is happiest weight wise when you take exercise out of the equation and eat/drink whatever I want.  I guess I should be happy that my body doesn't seem to want to go any higher than that.  The other bad part about weighing 243 in this body is high bp and cholesterol come with it.  So being this weight is not good for me mentally or physically and lets face it i'm not getting any younger which doesn't help either.  Most importantly I am not looking to blog a pity party because besides being plump my life is really good.  I have a wonderful wife, 2 awesome boys, a good secure job/income, wonderful friends and family, nice home and toys, and am relatively healthy at this point (nothing stopping me physically).

Its hard for me to want to jump back in because I have been down this path 3 times before.  You can see 2 of my trips from the 240s to the 190s in the archives on the side bar.  I have made mention of this before as it seems to be the evil circle I am stuck in.  I know that with my genetics and history I have to pretty much workout most days and continually watch what I eat.  Its just the way it has to be for me to succeed and remain healthy and at a healthy weight.  One thing that has always bugged me is I have never met my ultimate goal since starting this blog back in 2007.  My blogger name of Ripx180 was created for the strict purpose of me wanting to get into the 180s weight wise.  My past two attempts made the low 190s but never did I become Ripx180.  Another part of me doesn't want to bore readers with another failed attempt, thinking you are all thinking "do I have to read this again.....".  But I know this is more about what I need and that this blog is a place for me to vent/unload whats going on in my struggle with fat.  Hopefully along the way I will motivate or inspire those reading, and possibly make some online friends.  

With that being said I am going to commit to blogging at least once a week.  I would love to get back to having a strong community of online health conscious bloggers helping one another stay motivated and focused.  Give me a comment or a heads up if you want another reader on your blog.

Also wanted to send a shout out to David at http://there-is-no-finish-line.blogspot.com/ for kicking fats ass and for helping keep me motivated through his success, drive, and consistency in doing what I want to do.  Keep leading the way David!

Its a Start

Well last week was definitely not perfect but I think it was a step in the right direction. I got 3 workouts in and several days of descent eating. Had some bad meals too and drank to much booze over the weekend. I am hoping I got threw the first workouts soreness where you feel like your body has been through a war. This week my goal is to hit at least 4 workouts and have at least that many days of good eating. I guess that wont get the wonderful fast results but at this point I am trying to build some momentum. I will try to report in again in the next few days to say how things are going.

Ripx180 Reloaded

Well I am hoping this is a start to a better me. Had a good day yesterday both diet and exercise wise. I got on the scale yesterday morning and it made me so sad and mad at myself. I have really let myself slide once again. So pretty much starting at square one just a few years older. Vicious cycle folks if you ask me. Anyway my wife and I are doing some ole school P90 videos to get broke back in. At this point I physically cannot do p90x and not feel like I am going to die. I am hoping to do P90 for 1 or 2 months and then move back up to the harder P90X. Not happy with how I feel or what I see in the mirror. I hope this time around its the real deal and not just another false start that results in a DQ and extra pounds. Wish me luck...

3 Years Ago

It all started with a few words from a 11 year old. We were playing volleyball at the annual 4th party and I jumped up to make a block against my brother in law. I sprung up and position wise I was right where I needed to be but the ball glanced off my finger tips just out of my reach. When I came back down I was feeling a little dejected and this 11 year old looks at me and says "3 years ago". Pretty much 3 years ago I would have made that block. I know we were all just kind of trash talking but I started thinking about it and he is right. 3 years ago i would have stuffed that. 3 years ago I was 20 pounds lighter, and 3 years ago I was on the south side of 35. Truth be told I don't think it has anything to do with my age, it has everything to do with me letting my weight and fitness slide. This morning as I type this my left ankle feels like its one fused bone and my right knee feels really weak and sore. Those are the nagging pains, the entire rest of my body feels like its been through a war too. So I guess its a combination of a sore aging body and a 11 years old words that has driven me to post this. I don't know if this is the wake up call I need or just another bump in the road. I want to get back to feeling better mentally and physically about myself. The one thing I have stayed true to is my pushing change resolution. The goatee has not come back even though I have wanted it to and I think my wife likes it too. I told her that I promised myself I wouldn't grow it back unless I was sub 200 and she is supportive. Its not much but to me its a little victory. The soreness and lack of performance in our annual volleyball game hopefully lit a spark.... only time will tell.