Another Year Down - Jumping Back In.

Its hard to even know where to start in terms of blogging again.  I guess I should start with coming clean about where I am fitness wise as that is what this blog has always been about.  I am sitting here typing at 243 which is right at my heaviest.  This seems to be where my body is happiest weight wise when you take exercise out of the equation and eat/drink whatever I want.  I guess I should be happy that my body doesn't seem to want to go any higher than that.  The other bad part about weighing 243 in this body is high bp and cholesterol come with it.  So being this weight is not good for me mentally or physically and lets face it i'm not getting any younger which doesn't help either.  Most importantly I am not looking to blog a pity party because besides being plump my life is really good.  I have a wonderful wife, 2 awesome boys, a good secure job/income, wonderful friends and family, nice home and toys, and am relatively healthy at this point (nothing stopping me physically).

Its hard for me to want to jump back in because I have been down this path 3 times before.  You can see 2 of my trips from the 240s to the 190s in the archives on the side bar.  I have made mention of this before as it seems to be the evil circle I am stuck in.  I know that with my genetics and history I have to pretty much workout most days and continually watch what I eat.  Its just the way it has to be for me to succeed and remain healthy and at a healthy weight.  One thing that has always bugged me is I have never met my ultimate goal since starting this blog back in 2007.  My blogger name of Ripx180 was created for the strict purpose of me wanting to get into the 180s weight wise.  My past two attempts made the low 190s but never did I become Ripx180.  Another part of me doesn't want to bore readers with another failed attempt, thinking you are all thinking "do I have to read this again.....".  But I know this is more about what I need and that this blog is a place for me to vent/unload whats going on in my struggle with fat.  Hopefully along the way I will motivate or inspire those reading, and possibly make some online friends.  

With that being said I am going to commit to blogging at least once a week.  I would love to get back to having a strong community of online health conscious bloggers helping one another stay motivated and focused.  Give me a comment or a heads up if you want another reader on your blog.

Also wanted to send a shout out to David at http://there-is-no-finish-line.blogspot.com/ for kicking fats ass and for helping keep me motivated through his success, drive, and consistency in doing what I want to do.  Keep leading the way David!

Its a Start

Well last week was definitely not perfect but I think it was a step in the right direction. I got 3 workouts in and several days of descent eating. Had some bad meals too and drank to much booze over the weekend. I am hoping I got threw the first workouts soreness where you feel like your body has been through a war. This week my goal is to hit at least 4 workouts and have at least that many days of good eating. I guess that wont get the wonderful fast results but at this point I am trying to build some momentum. I will try to report in again in the next few days to say how things are going.

Ripx180 Reloaded

Well I am hoping this is a start to a better me. Had a good day yesterday both diet and exercise wise. I got on the scale yesterday morning and it made me so sad and mad at myself. I have really let myself slide once again. So pretty much starting at square one just a few years older. Vicious cycle folks if you ask me. Anyway my wife and I are doing some ole school P90 videos to get broke back in. At this point I physically cannot do p90x and not feel like I am going to die. I am hoping to do P90 for 1 or 2 months and then move back up to the harder P90X. Not happy with how I feel or what I see in the mirror. I hope this time around its the real deal and not just another false start that results in a DQ and extra pounds. Wish me luck...

3 Years Ago

It all started with a few words from a 11 year old. We were playing volleyball at the annual 4th party and I jumped up to make a block against my brother in law. I sprung up and position wise I was right where I needed to be but the ball glanced off my finger tips just out of my reach. When I came back down I was feeling a little dejected and this 11 year old looks at me and says "3 years ago". Pretty much 3 years ago I would have made that block. I know we were all just kind of trash talking but I started thinking about it and he is right. 3 years ago i would have stuffed that. 3 years ago I was 20 pounds lighter, and 3 years ago I was on the south side of 35. Truth be told I don't think it has anything to do with my age, it has everything to do with me letting my weight and fitness slide. This morning as I type this my left ankle feels like its one fused bone and my right knee feels really weak and sore. Those are the nagging pains, the entire rest of my body feels like its been through a war too. So I guess its a combination of a sore aging body and a 11 years old words that has driven me to post this. I don't know if this is the wake up call I need or just another bump in the road. I want to get back to feeling better mentally and physically about myself. The one thing I have stayed true to is my pushing change resolution. The goatee has not come back even though I have wanted it to and I think my wife likes it too. I told her that I promised myself I wouldn't grow it back unless I was sub 200 and she is supportive. Its not much but to me its a little victory. The soreness and lack of performance in our annual volleyball game hopefully lit a spark.... only time will tell.

Pushing Change.

Well I have been rocking the 90s goatee for the last 15 years cutting it off on occasion to only grow it back shortly after. Well yesterday I decided it was time for a change and chopped it off making myself a little promise. For many of those 15 years I have been hiding my fat chin behind it using it's look to elongate my face. My promise to myself was I will not grow it back until I am back in Onederland and I plan to stick to that. If you cant give yourself your own word and stick to it than how good is your word? Its time to get back in and start pushing back.

I Got a Whole Lot of Nothing....

Well the last few weeks have been pretty much a wash. Haven't been hitting my workouts and my diet has been good off and on. Thought I had found the eye of the tiger but woke up one day with the eye of the sloth.

Well this last wed I had my annual physical. Doc says "looks like you have put on some weight". I agree and he asks why? Pretty much tell him that my diet has gotten lax and that I haven't been working out like I was. Anyway he goes into the usual I am not a nutritionist run down of what I should be eating and that I need to get more exercise. I agree and he tells me my blood pressure is up and that he would like to see it down where it was last year. Which turns back to diet and exercise talk. I am also supposed to go get a blood draw for test too and i am afraid of what that might say too. With that all being said I know what needs to be done but I am having a hard time putting it into motion. I think allot of people are struggling with this exact same thing. I mentally feel like I am missing out on something if I cant eat what other people are eating or drink beers with my buddies. So much in my family and friends circles revolves around food and drink. But alas I have said all this before. I need to find the thought process or mindset that says it doesn't matter and that my health and wellness is more important than living in the now.

Tonight I plan on getting some exercise in and I still need to keep posting more here. Sorry for such a long time between posts.

Wednesday Weigh In....

Well I am down 2.5 pounds in my first official week of working out and eating better. Doesn't seem like much but its something.

Did the spartacus workout on Monday night and my legs are freaking killing me. I wasn't able to make it through 3 rotations of the spartacus circuit either, I only did 2. It still clocked in at over 30mins and 400+ calories burned. I ran last night and this morning I am definitely walking a little funny.

Diet has been spot on this week thus far. Been a little hungry and that leads to weight loss in my experience.

This weekend is going to be really tuff. We have our annual Mt Bachelor trip with friends. I already know I will be eating some stuff off my diet so portions are going to be key. That's my plan and I am sticking to it. I am also planning to log some workouts while down there (most likely running).

Until Later....